Simple, but beautiful. Brings us back to the core of worship: pure adoration, love, and worship. Sometimes there is just nothing else to do but to still your heart in His presence.
Hope this blesses you today. :)
Man of Sorrows - Hillsong United COVER
This post deserves to reposted again and again. I first saw this post shared by my incredibly talented friend, Clare, and recently, a journalist friend of mine, reposted this on her instagram. Yes - one of of those “annoying” (as some say. I don’t care, I’d read anything) reposted quotes and texts. But you have no idea how much comfort this was to me, especially in the past week.
I haven’t had much time to really sit down and write, and much of that is just me being lazy. But just for yall who don’t know, I am now working as a Marketing Exec in a small Japanese company in the Orchard area. My job scope mainly concerns the web shop, doing a lot of “designing” and just making things work over in that virtual commercial space.
And this job has its challenges. First of all, THE THING that has got me the most frustrated is the communication barrier and the differences in my boss’ styles and tastes compared to mine. Second of all, is this frustration within myself that I cannot produce the work that I would LOVE to produce. It’s like I have all these ideas floating in my head and I just cannot put it out the way my talented friend Clare can. Every day I’m faced with self-doubt: I’m just working too slow. I cannot handle illustrator! Everything looks UGLY!
But finally as I sit down to think about it, I should simply be thankful. I mean, only two weeks after my internship, I could start work as a full-time employee. Not having to go through the painful job search phase is such a blessing in itself. Further, it is a job with so many learning opportunities. Everything had to be done from scratch. I mean, I even fixed IKEA office chairs on my second day of work.
And every week, I find myself expanding in crazy ways. First week, I’d be out buying the logistics for the office. Second week, testing out some online service providers. The next, taking product photos and putting them online. Yet another, writing sales proposals. It’s all so challenging and exciting.
BUT THEN, THERE IS THIS GAP.
When I was struggling, in that quicksand of self-doubt, it was so hard to see the good in the whole picture. So, now, like what Xuan said, as difficult and kinda disgusting as it still is… (mostly disgusted with my own work), I gotta be patient and let myself expand. The process is sure gna be uncomfortable, I mean just look at that fat caterpillar cocooning itself and trying to grow wings while all in that 5 mm of space. I bet when he was inside he’s all like GOSH END THIS MISERY NOW, WHY OH GOD ARE YOU TORTURING MEEE!. But like the next day he’s gonna be like, OH YEAH~ Look ma I’m flyinggg!!!! whee…. and be the most beautiful and glorious of them all.
My boss is a very nice person, even though sometimes I feel like the communication barrier is harder to overcome than I thought. He could have, from the get-go, put out a job ad for experienced marketing personnel like any other company. But he gave me a chance. And I feel so bad now for those previous times when I trashed out at the difficulties of my job, complaining, giving out nothing but negativity. I’m so sorry that people had to hear that negativity. I wish I can take it back. Because I think so much of that negativity was coming out from my own self-doubt and frustration. Only insecure, unhappy people complain and spread negativity. Reminder to self: always check within, not without. Me > My circumstances.
I must remember this for every creative work I will set out to do. Taking photos, writing, playing the guitar, etc. I think that because creative work is so colourful and visual, it’s very easy to be blind to backstage preparation, all that tough slog, practice, hard work and discipline.
Wow. It’s great to be back. I wanna be blogging, even maybe vlogging, more. Now that I’ve kinda settled down into my job, I can finally have a clearer mind on some of the extra things I wanna dabble in.
Thank you wise Ira Glass.
And then this, while Joshua was there near Jericho: He looked up and saw right in front of him a man standing, holding his drawn sword.
Joshua stepped up to him and said, “Whose side are you on—ours or our enemies’?”
He said, “Neither. I’m commander of God ’s army. I’ve just arrived.”
(Joshua 5:13-14 MSG)
Somehow, I just love this verse!
It was Junli’s birthday on 24 January and we celebrated it on a Sunday at one of my favourite places in Singapore… Duxton! We first went into Department of Caffeine, and then we went to Quarter to Three.
Now he is in Sheffield on exchange and I’m so happy for him that he will be discovering and marvelling at all the art and history in Europe. I can say I already kinda miss him cos Santouka has one for one promotion now and I always go to Santouka with Junli! Haha.
Learnt poker the other night at Claire’s…. I finally understand why people get addicted to it!
Fourth day of CNY with a few dear ones. :)
And behold, the Lord passed by,
and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind;
and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake;
and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire;
and after the fire a still small voice.